it turns out i need to turn to you

i feel damaged
weak
stupid

never felt this way

i feel like i'm the most stupid person in my class

how come i cant understand a thing when i read the books

it feels like another language

i feel stupid

weak

I need to see a therapist.

Initially, when i started this blog, i never intended to put in posts that are so personal to me. However, today i choose to break that rule as i just need to pour out this burning pain i have in my throat..

u know that feeling....

it's when u wanna cry but u dont want to coz of the circumstances...

Recently, i have just self-diagnosed myself and discovered that i have ADD (Attention deficit disorder)

i dont know why but i just feel so stressed out thinking about how depressed i feel.

n then i found out that its normal for someone with ADD to feel depressed...

signs and symptoms of ADD that i face:

• extreme distractibility; wandering attention makes it hard to stay on track
• poor organizational skills (home, office, desk, or car is extremely messy and cluttered)
• tendency to procrastinate
• frequently forgetting appointments, commitments, and deadlines
• constantly losing or misplacing things (keys, wallet, phone, documents, bills)
• have trouble behaving in socially appropriate ways (such as sitting still during a long meeting)
• sense of underachievement
• easily flustered and stressed out
• trouble staying motivated
• short, often explosive, temper
• low self-esteem and sense of insecurity
• getting bored easily

source: http://www.helpguide.org/mental/adhd_add_adult_symptoms.htm

n then i found out that one way to deal with this is to sleep..

thats what i choose to do right after i post this.. sleep really helps in my case.

the struggling writer still needs to edit IM Perfect.

i still hv some editing to do.
not tht happy with chapter 1.
think i cn do better..